My Journal

• Apology

  Now I feel bad for everything I wrote earlier. Not sure why, but I know I played a part in this mess as well. I was just trying too much to stay friend with my ex while it was clear that I should’ve given myself more time to heal. I [...]
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  Posted: September 03, 2009, 1:04pm EDT
  

• Nothing Has Changed

  Not long after I was done writing my last journal entry, my ex IM’d me. With the usual lines. So, which part of “Please don’t contact me until I’m ready to call you” doesn’t he understand? I asked him to not contact me at all--no phone call, text messages, emails, [...]
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  Posted: September 01, 2009, 9:08pm EDT
  

• Already Gone

  I decided to send a courtesy text message to my ex since he didn’t seem to get it when I told him I didn’t want any contact with him for a while last Saturday night. I kind of thought he didn’t because the last text message he sent to me [...]
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  Posted: September 01, 2009, 2:13pm EDT
  

• Better Make It Better

  I feel a bit better today. Not as upset as I was last night. I guess I should’ve followed my guts to not go to the Ocean View Pier Party. Oh, well. It happened. But, it also woke me up from the daze. Lately I thought things could work out [...]
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  Posted: August 30, 2009, 4:34pm EDT
  

• This is the End

  My feeling was right. Going to the last Ocean View Pier Party wasn’t a good idea. Probably I was being too sensitive, but Doug didn’t say much to me. He just introduced me to his new boyfriend, Andy, and that was it. I know he probably was just trying to [...]
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  Posted: August 29, 2009, 9:00pm EDT
  

• The Moving

  Don’t know why I feel moving some of my stuff tomorrow from Doug’s house feels like it sealed my history with him as boyfriends. It was my home there once. Had some fun memories with Doug there. Some bad memories I chose to forget. Everything still seems like a dream [...]
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  Posted: August 27, 2009, 7:11pm EDT
  

• The Ex’s

  I guess I just don’t understand what’s going on with Doug concerning the ex’s. I mean, back then when we were boyfriends he wouldn’t let me see his ex. If he had something to do with him, I had to stay away. We had to avoid places that his ex [...]
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  Posted: August 26, 2009, 3:14pm EDT
  

• Destiny

  Looks like Doug finally found a good match for his boyfriend. Andy, the guy he’s been seeing since I moved out, sounds so much like a guy Doug needs. He told me they get along well. They sure spend a lot of time together, more than when we were just [...]
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  Posted: August 25, 2009, 6:38pm EDT
  

• Rent

  I transferred my last rent to Doug today. Starting next month I have to pay the rent to Robert. We’ll split the groceries and other costs. That should help calm me down about finding a place to live. I wasn’t sure at first if it was okay for me to [...]
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  Posted: August 23, 2009, 9:19pm EDT
  

• What to Love

  So, what does exactly get you to like someone at the first sight? The way that person looks? The personality? What do you care most about a person you’re seeing? Her boobs size? His dick size? I know it’s impossible to find a perfect person, but I’d like to find [...]
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  Posted: August 20, 2009, 7:40pm EDT
  

• Truth or Lie?

  I guess my biggest problem is once I found out someone lied to me, I could never ever trust him or her anymore. One lie would lead you to another lie. Stick to that lie, then you have to keep on lying all the time. I’ve seen too many betrayals [...]
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  Posted: August 19, 2009, 8:30pm EDT
  

• Navigate Me

  I decided to buy TomTom app for my iPhone last nite. I know it’s expensive, but I miss its UI so bad. There’s a feature TomTom has that others don’t: skip one particular road on a route. All I have to do is go through the route list, pick one [...]
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  Posted: August 18, 2009, 8:19pm EDT
  

• Bleeding Love

  I had a great weekend. Going out with Doug on Saturday night was one of the best times I’ve had with him in a long time. It was weird in a way because it sort of brought me to that time when we were still happy together. I know I [...]
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  Posted: August 17, 2009, 8:05pm EDT
  

• Moving On In

  I decided to stay at Robert’s house. He offered a good rate for renting there, plus we’re only gonna share the main groceries. I have to buy my own extra food and drinks. Besides, it already feels like home there. Heck, I always hang out there anyway. I like the [...]
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  Posted: August 13, 2009, 9:29pm EDT
  

• Stressed Out

  Talked to Doug on the phone this afternoon, and actually it was a decent conversation. He’s still not comfortable with questions I asked about him and his new love interest, but he’d better get used to it. I was just being a good, nosey friend I am. I hope it’s [...]
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  Posted: August 12, 2009, 9:56pm EDT
  

• Back to Work

  Going back to work today wasn’t easy. I’m on the 8:30-23:00 shift this week. I’m still feeling somewhat tired and jet-laggy. Hopefully it won’t be too busy this week. I still need my rest. Didn’t have enough rest during my weekend in San Diego. Didn’t regret it, though. It was [...]
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  Posted: August 11, 2009, 8:46pm EDT
  

• Home Again

  Back at home again. Hated the long flight, but it was good being with my good friends again in San Diego. There were moments I got confused because my memory of San Diego got mixed up with one of Norfolk. Somehow it felt weird being in that city again. Like [...]
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  Posted: August 10, 2009, 10:58pm EDT
  

• San Diego: Day 3

  We’re staying at the Beach Village at the Del in Coronado Island now. Got here last night right from Mikee’s party. It’s very nice hotel. I love it, but I can’t afford it. Good thing Mikee’s got this for us... The guys from Las Vegas shared the hotel room [...]
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  Posted: August 09, 2009, 11:24am EDT
  

• San Diego: Day 2

  Didn’t do much today. Went out for breakfast at Brian’s in Hillcrest. Still the same good food. Was supposed to meet Gordie, but he had to go in to work early today. I guess we’ll work something out later this evening or something. I know we have to go to [...]
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  Posted: August 08, 2009, 11:14am EDT
  

• San Diego: Day 1

  Waiting for Dickie to get ready now. We’re going to Rich’s tonight. Met with his new love interest, Jack, who works at the Genius Bar at the Apple Store in San Diego. With that one thing in common, I talked a lot about Apple stuff with him. He’s a nice [...]
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  Posted: August 07, 2009, 10:15pm EDT
  

• Mini-Vacation Started Now

  Oh, boy. Time does fly so fast when you’re busy. I can’t believe today is the start of my mini-vacation. Tomorrow I will be in San Diego. Wow! I need to get away for a bit. All this stress from work and personal life finally took its toll. I just [...]
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  Posted: August 05, 2009, 9:30pm EDT
  

• The Drive-By

  I decided to meet up with David, the guy I’ve been chatting with for a couple of weeks. It’s purely for friendship. That’s what we’re both looking for anyway. I already told him that, and he emphasized that he was looking for friendship only. I had my doubts, but I [...]
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  Posted: August 04, 2009, 10:11pm EDT
  

• The Meet

  I met up with Doug tonite. I promised I would meet up with him to spend some time alone with him and talk. We went out to eat at Rama Garden in downtown Norfolk. Walked around the mall afterwards. Went to do some grocery shopping after the mall. Then, stopped [...]
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  Posted: August 03, 2009, 10:04pm EDT
  

• Sometime Love Just Ain’t Enough Again

  I can understand if Doug is feeling very hurt. But, nobody knows how hard this separation on my end. It’s not as easy as I always show to people. I don’t like breaking up. I don’t like the pain it gives me. I still care about Doug and still loves [...]
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  Posted: August 01, 2009, 9:51pm EDT
  

• Another Talk

  Doug wants to talk to me alone again. I don’t know if I want that. I’m afraid we’re just gonna end up fighting again. I know he wants me to stay there for the company and for the rent money. He can’t afford living there by himself. I could try [...]
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  Posted: July 27, 2009, 7:29pm EDT
  

• First Vacation

  I am somewhat excited about my trip to San Diego next month, but also somewhat weary to see more drama happening there. Besides, this trip came as a surprise. Three weeks ago Mike called and asked if I could come to his party at his house in San Diego on [...]
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  Posted: July 23, 2009, 7:22pm EDT
  

• The Phone Call

  I called my youngest sister on her cellphone as I was on my way to Robert’s house this morning. I didn’t expect to spend about 90 minutes talking to her, her daughter and my oldest niece--the daughter from my other sister. It was fun. But, she was mostly talking about [...]
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  Posted: July 18, 2009, 12:03pm EDT
  

• Happy Birthday, Sis!

  Today is my youngest sister’s birthday. She’ll be 30 years old. Ouch! We used to celebrate our birthday together. Yeah, me and my youngest sister are best friends, except for the times when I was having problems with my family. We lost contact then. I miss her. She has the [...]
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  Posted: July 17, 2009, 11:59am EDT
  

• Time Alone with Me

  It was funny when Doug got all upset about me going out alone somewhere. I just went to the Ocean View beach for a couple of hours just to sit and relax. It’s not really “the spot” because I found it when I had to go down there for a [...]
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  Posted: July 15, 2009, 11:53am EDT
  

• My 36th Birthday

  “Happy Birthday, Toddy! You’re getting another year older.”
  
  Yeah, I am turning 36 years old today. Oh, my God. I can’t believe I’ve lasted this long. But, hey, age is just a number. There’s nothing I can do about it. I can’t stop the hands of time. There’s no [...]
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  Posted: July 13, 2009, 8:31pm EDT
  

• Online Again

  Being online has always been a weird experience for me. I mean, being online on some gay dating slash hookup websites. I’ve been putting up my ad on some websites for a while now. Never really meet anybody from there because most of them are pretty creepy or weird. Sometimes [...]
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  Posted: July 12, 2009, 9:03pm EDT
  

• The Fight Again

  It’s still early, but Doug and I already had a fight. Started from the moment I told him that JR pooped in the center bathroom again. He said, “I don’t know. Maybe he got confused because he was allowed to when I was gone.” Did that sound like he blame [...]
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  Posted: July 09, 2009, 7:13am EDT
  

• Forgiven, Not Forgotten

  Today Doug and I started talking more than just some simple hi and how-was-your-day stuff. Unfortunately, the more we talk to each other, the bigger the chance of us having a fight. So, that’s what happened tonight. We had a fight on our way to Home Depot to see about [...]
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  Posted: July 06, 2009, 8:35pm EDT
  

• Boys Nite Out

  So, we decided to go out last night and skipped the fireworks show in downtown Norfolk. Robert and I were too tired to wait another 90 minutes for the show after walking around the town park for the Harbor Festival. There were too many people there too.
  
  Anyway, [...]
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  Posted: July 05, 2009, 1:02pm EDT
  

• 4th of July Weekend

  The past few days have been very busy for me, especially last night. It broke my all time record at work. Last night I worked for 16 plus hours and drove about 435 miles. I’m still feeling very tired tonight for sure. Good thing I am off this weekend. I [...]
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  Posted: July 03, 2009, 8:58pm EDT
  

• Same Old, Same Old

  I wonder why Doug keep telling different things from what he actually does. Still trying to keep me around until he finally finds someone better? He doesn’t have to do that. I told him I’d stay until he finds a new one. I know he's been online chatting on Skype, [...]
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  Posted: June 29, 2009, 9:17pm EDT
  

• A Whole New World

  Doug and I are still adjusting to our new relationship, I guess. It’s only been a week, and it’s a whole new world for us. It’s not easy, especially on him. I know I have to do this so I can be happy. I’m sure sooner or later he’s gonna [...]
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  Posted: June 28, 2009, 7:55pm EDT
  

• Outta Love

  I started to think that I might have to just move out of D’s house. I’m not sure if being roommates with D is a good idea. He doesn’t seem to get the fact that I don’t wanna be his boyfriend anymore. Perhaps he still needs time to adjust to [...]
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  Posted: June 24, 2009, 8:12pm EDT
  

• The Talk

  Doug and I finally talked about our relationship. I’m glad that he finally respects my wishes. So, we’re just gonna remain friends. Of course, he still wants to see if things would develop again. But, I warned him not to think about it because it ain’t happening. I’m not in [...]
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  Posted: June 23, 2009, 7:21pm EDT
  

• Last Day at Robert’s

  It’s my last day staying at Robert’s. It’s been a nice month, living in a real home. Not sure what’s gonna happen with me after Doug and I are talking about it tomorrow. I know he still wants me to give it another try, but I don’t want to. I’ve [...]
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  Posted: June 21, 2009, 1:50pm EDT
  

• iPhone 3GS

  Today I got my new iPhone 3GS. It’s my early birthday gift to me. How sweet... :-)
  
  I went to the Apple Store at MacArthur Mall at 8:00. I should’ve gone there at 7:00 instead because the line was already long and moving so slow. I already [...]
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  Posted: June 19, 2009, 10:58pm EDT
  

• Seeing Doug

  Doug surprised me when he stopped by his house on his way back from the legal advisors office. I stopped by his house to let JR out and cleaned up his mess--he pees and poops anywhere he wants to. Anyway, I was taking a dump when he walked in to [...]
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  Posted: June 15, 2009, 7:03pm EDT
  

• Last Week at Robert’s

  This week is my last week staying at Robert’s. Doug is getting out of his restriction next weekend, on June 21st. In a way I’m glad he’s done with that. But, I’ll miss living at Robert’s house. It’s just nice to live in an actual home, and not a wrecked [...]
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  Posted: June 13, 2009, 9:36pm EDT
  

• Talk the Talk

  D & I finally had a pretty civilized conversation over the phone last night. I tried not to bring up the reasons why I couldn’t trust him or why I fell out of love with him. I’ve mentioned them too many times here, and he knows. I just told him [...]
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  Posted: June 11, 2009, 8:19pm EDT
  

• Home Alone

  It feels a little weird being alone at Robert’s house. It’s gonna be totally strange. It’s good, though. I had a pretty good day today. Relaxing. Got to help Tom with his panning shoot project at the Zoo. Did my laundry. Took Sandy for a walk. I did check the [...]
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  Posted: June 07, 2009, 6:16pm EDT
  

• Good Friday

  It’s been raining and storming here all day today. It scares me a little because I hate flood. I grew up having flood in the rain season. I just hope it will stop anytime soon.
  
  Other than that, I’ve had a good Friday today. Didn’t do much, but I [...]
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  Posted: June 05, 2009, 8:04pm EDT
  

• Hot Days

  Boy, has it been quite hot lately! I know I always hate hot days like today, especially when it gets really humid as well. I’m looking forward for summer to be over. I like the cool weather in fall. I can deal a lot better with cold weather in winter. [...]
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  Posted: June 02, 2009, 8:10pm EDT
  

• Drag Me to Hell

  Had my day off today. It was too hot to do things so I decided to go see a movie with Robert. We went to see Drag Me to Hell, by Sam Raimi. I always like Raimi’s horror movies. This new one from his is no doubt [...]
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  Posted: June 01, 2009, 8:18pm EDT
  

• Don’t Blame It on the Rain

  So, Doug told Robert that I misbehaved ever since he moved down here to Norfolk. I knew Doug mentioned that before, and I kept telling him that it’s not true and to stop dragging Robert in the middle of our problem. Robert’s moving here to the same city where I [...]
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  Posted: May 30, 2009, 9:05pm EDT
  

• Not Gonna Change

  So, I think most people commenting on my previous entry, The Reason, seemed to agree I’m such a selfish, bitchy, little drama queen. That’s alright. If it’s what they think about me, I’d be alright. I am what I am, and I am not gonna change. Life is too [...]
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  Posted: May 29, 2009, 8:57pm EDT
  

• The Reason

  This is my response to the comment on my journal entry, Wanted: No Relationship.
  
  What’s been going on at D’s work is not the reason why I want to end the relationship. It doesn’t even bug me a bit. What bugs me is his dishonesty. I fell out [...]
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  Posted: May 28, 2009, 7:41pm EDT
  

• Mother

  Got a text message from Troy this morning, telling me that his mother passed away last night at 2:30. I know he told me that she’d been sick a lot for years, and that this might be better for her now that she’s not in pain anymore. Still, losing your [...]
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  Posted: May 28, 2009, 10:49am EDT
  

• The Usual Fight

  I decided to take D’s call tonite so he wouldn’t keep calling me all night long when I’m trying to get some sleep. As usual, we got into an argument. Not sure what started it, but at times the way he says things or something he says ticks me off. [...]
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  Posted: May 25, 2009, 9:22pm EDT
  

• Wicked

  I went to see Wicked with Robert, Debbie, Dennis and Tina today. It was awesome as usual. Great actors and singers. Neat stage. Everything about it was superb. Loved it. It was a full house, except for one seat where D was supposed to sit. Too bad he missed a [...]
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  Posted: May 24, 2009, 9:55pm EDT
  

• Wanted: No Relationship

  I don’t know much about relationships. I’ve been in some, but never really a very long term one. Does two-three year one count? Not here to preach or advise people what kind of relationship is the best one. I read some books on relationship 101, but in reality things written [...]
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  Posted: May 24, 2009, 9:37pm EDT
  

• Being Online. Again.

  Yes, I have been online in some gay websites. Not specifically looking for action, but won’t avoid it if the chance presents itself. Nothing “pops up” just yet on my computer. I guess “someone” that knows D saw me and “reported” it to him. When he asked me about it, [...]
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  Posted: May 23, 2009, 5:02pm EDT
  

• Sometimes Love Just Ain’t Enough

  I remember that song, Sometimes Love Just Ain’t Enough, from way back when I was in high school. Never really understood what it meant then, but as time went by I started to understand it. There were people I was in love with in the past that I had to [...]
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  Posted: May 18, 2009, 10:06pm EDT
  

• Wet, Long Weekend

  Well, it’s Sunday evening already. Have to work long hours this week all week. Not looking forward to it, really. But, I had a good, relaxing weekend although it was really wet. Yeah, it’s been raining a lot this weekend. Didn’t do much outdoor stuff. Just went to see a [...]
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  Posted: May 17, 2009, 7:08pm EDT
  

• Star Trek

  I loved the new Star Trek movie. It was a very fun movie. I was glad J.J. Abrams didn’t turn it into another Cloverfield. Robert and I watched at the IMAX Theater at the Virginia Air and Space Center in Hampton. The IMAX experience [...]
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  Posted: May 17, 2009, 7:01pm EDT
  

• Working

  Saw Working at Little Theater of Norfolk tonight. It’s their last production for this season, and I can say that I liked it. It was actually pretty good for a local theater. The actors and actresses were great. The music was a little too low in the background. [...]
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  Posted: May 16, 2009, 11:54pm EDT
  

• Gloomy

  The weather hasn’t been so friendly here lately. I was hoping it would get a little better this weekend, but so far it’s been so gloomy. Not sure if I wanna go to the Greek Festival on Granby Street later today. I hope it won’t rain. Maybe we’re just gonna [...]
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  Posted: May 16, 2009, 9:24am EDT
  

• Huh, Third Chance?

  Suddenly it hit me just now. At around this time last year, D and I almost broke up. That’s when I found out he was still on gay.com despite of our agreement on not being on that site. Found out that he exchanged dick photos with someone from New York. [...]
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  Posted: May 15, 2009, 9:20pm EDT
  

• Second Chance

  I love this song from Shinedown. Reminds me of myself and what I went through in the past. I’m glad I have been given a second chance although it had to come from a very painful experience. I hope my parents understand that this is my life and I am [...]
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  Posted: May 15, 2009, 7:30pm EDT
  

• One More Try

  So, D asked if I could give it another try. I know it’s not gonna work out between us. Not that I am being pessimistic, but we often have that personality clash. Besides the trust issue, this one is one deal breaker too. Sometime love is just not enough to [...]
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  Posted: May 15, 2009, 6:37pm EDT
  

• Angels & Demons

  I gotta say I didn’t like the movie, Angels & Demons. I love the book, though. The movie sucked big time. They stripped a lot of things from the book to speed things up. The characters didn’t come to life. They seemed flat. Professor Langdon in the movie [...]
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  Posted: May 15, 2009, 6:23pm EDT
  

• Photos

  As requested, I deleted all D’s photos from my website photo albums on here and my previous ones. I still have to work on some smaller ones that I uploaded as my micro-journal. That’ll be another job. I don’t question why, but in his case, I understand. He doesn’t want [...]
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  Posted: May 14, 2009, 12:12pm EDT
  

• All About Me

  Here I am at home, taking a break from work. Not sure where to start writing. There are too many things going through my head, but I just couldn’t find a word to say it. Oh, well. Let’s start with the weekend. Well, my weekend was pretty busy with work. [...]
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  Posted: May 13, 2009, 2:18pm EDT
  

• The Verdict is Official

  Doug called and told me that it is official that he’s not gonna see me for the next 45 days. He’s gonna have a two month pay cut, and still might lose his job. I feel bad for him. Not sure what’s gonna happen to him then. I think he’ll [...]
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  Posted: May 08, 2009, 9:01pm EDT
  

• The Verdict

  Doug called me when I was at Robert at my lunch break. He told me that things aren’t looking so good. They didn’t want to bring in Doug’s witness that could at least clear the situation a little bit. He said that it seemed like they already made the decision [...]
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  Posted: May 07, 2009, 5:58pm EDT
  

• Because I’m Bad

  Today I have come to a conclusion that I am a mean person. I am not a good person. I’m feeling so bad about myself. Not that much, though, I must admit.
  
  Doug is all worried about tomorrow because they’re then gonna determine what kind of punishment they’d give [...]
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  Posted: May 06, 2009, 8:55pm EDT
  

• Guilt & Suspicions

  I had been feeling guilty all day today for what happened last night. Doug wanted a little sympathy because he was feeling down with the whole thing going on at his work. I was tired, and was about ready to go to bed, plus I already lost my sympathy towards [...]
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  Posted: May 04, 2009, 7:51pm EDT
  

• The Bright Side of Things

  There’s always a bright side of everything in this life. Sometimes it’s hard to see it, but it is there no matter how difficult our life is. Funny how that song from Spamalot, Always Look on the Bright Side of Life, played in my head over and over [...]
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  Posted: May 01, 2009, 10:15pm EDT
  

• Keep It to Yourself

  I guess yesterday things weren’t going so well for Doug. They really grilled him, and it seemed like they already made up their mind on what kind of punishment they want to bring for Doug. They just have to follow the system and the bureaucracy. He’s really stressed out now. [...]
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  Posted: April 30, 2009, 5:21pm EDT
  

• Judgement Day

  It’s been a busy Monday evening. I did get a few calls during the day, but not as bad. Had to pend my last call to tomorrow because I kept getting harassed by drunks while working on a terminal at a convention center. Too many young college kids drinking too [...]
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  Posted: April 27, 2009, 9:46pm EDT
  

• Very Lazy Weekend

  So I haven’t done much this weekend, but I’m not feeling guilty. I deserve it, I think, because I worked all through the weekend last week, and next week I’ll be on-call all week long. Summer is coming and things are picking up the pace. It’s getting busier now. I [...]
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  Posted: April 25, 2009, 12:51pm EDT
  

• Uncertain

  Things are not looking good at work for Douglas. He spoke to his lawyer and he told me that his lawyer basically said that he’s screwed. I feel bad for him, but I also feel upset with him. I’m just completely unhappy with this situation. I’m sure he isn’t either. [...]
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  Posted: April 23, 2009, 9:25pm EDT
  

• Crushed, Crushed, Crushed!

  Something came up at work for Doug. It was the problem happened a few months ago we thought already died out. Suddenly it appeared into the surface again. Yeah, Doug called me up this morning and told me that he had to go to the legal advisers to see about [...]
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  Posted: April 22, 2009, 5:47pm EDT
  

• The Questions

  I’m not a political nor even a religious person. I tend to avoid talking about it. But, I’m confused about a few things so I’m just gonna throw it out there.
  
  First, why do they keep saying Obama failed when he just barely started?
  
  Second, why do they [...]
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  Posted: April 21, 2009, 5:48pm EDT
  

• Busy Bee

  This weekend work was a lot busier than I was hoping it for. I’m still feeling somewhat tired, but better since I finally had a good rest. Yeah, I slept in the center bedroom all by myself with no one to bother me. Didn’t even wake up till 6:30 in [...]
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  Posted: April 20, 2009, 10:37am EDT
  

• Saying I Love You...

  Doug sort of woke me up at around 2:30. He grabbed my arm and shook it. I knew he didn’t mean to because he was having a dream or something, but it still woke me up and upset me. Now I couldn’t go back to sleep while I have to [...]
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  Posted: April 19, 2009, 3:32am EDT
  

• Song About Us

  A friend of mine in San Diego sent me a link to a YouTube video. He said when he heard that song, he thought of my relationship with D. Not sure why. But, I’ll tell ya, I agree. Hey, buddy! Thanks for pointing this out to me. I appreciate it. [...]
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  Posted: April 17, 2009, 6:38pm EDT
  

• Supposedly Hump Day

  I guess for most people today is their hump day. Not for me. I’m gonna have to work all through the weekend, and won’t get any days off until next hump day. It already feels like a long, slow week. I just want to get it over with. Don’t feel [...]
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  Posted: April 15, 2009, 6:45pm EDT
  

• Speeding Trap

  I think I have to be more careful when driving along the small, remote highway in North Carolina. I got another speeding ticket today on my way to Edenton, NC. I was driving seven miles above the posted speed limit, 55 MPH. The fine is 25 bucks, but the [...]
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  Posted: April 13, 2009, 6:29pm EDT
  

• Boring Weekend

  Didn’t do much this weekend as usual. It got a little boring for me without Robert here. I tried to be civilized, but we did get into a little fight earlier today. Not looking forward to tomorrow. I mean, in a way I am because I’m gonna see Robert again. [...]
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  Posted: April 12, 2009, 7:25pm EDT
  

• Vandalized

  My work vehicle got vandalized again. (See the picture here.) It happened before sometime in November 2007 with my first work vehicle I got from Enterprise. Same thing happened: they broke the driver’s side window and stole my iPod. So, now I’m iPod-less. Good thing I have an iPhone [...]
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  Posted: April 10, 2009, 12:07pm EDT
  

• I’m FBI!

  This week has been long and draggy. I hate working long hours. I miss the shift we had back then. When we were on call till 23:00, we used to start at 10:30. We could sleep in or do something else in the morning first before starting to work. I [...]
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  Posted: April 07, 2009, 9:54pm EDT
  

• Relaxing Weekend

  It’s been quite a relaxing weekend for me. Didn’t do too much, and had enough time to just relax. Doug and I went out to eat at Ooka Sushi in downtown Norfolk on Friday evening. Walked around the mall afterwards because Doug wanted to check out some sales [...]
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  Posted: April 05, 2009, 11:30am EDT
  

• Quiet Days

  I know I haven’t been keeping up with my journal lately. It’s just that there’s not much to tell, really. Everything is still the same. I’ve been doing the same routine every day. Right now I’m at home for lunch, so I decided to write something on my journal.
  
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  Posted: April 02, 2009, 1:20pm EDT
  

• Working Weekend

  This weekend it’s my turn to work. Not really looking forward to it, but it’s okay. Got a few calls, but I also managed to finish up my time sheet. Oops, I just got another call on my work phone. Let’s see. It’s in Chesapeake. I’ll go there in a [...]
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  Posted: March 28, 2009, 1:17pm EDT
  

• The Job

  I really hope that the economy here will get better soon. I’ve been wanting to find a new job. I’m getting tired of driving around all over the places all the time. I also feel like I’m stuck at where I’m at right now at work. It’s hard for me [...]
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  Posted: March 24, 2009, 11:45am EDT
  

• The Weekend Report

  Not much we’ve done this weekend. Had a couple of fights with Doug on Friday night and this morning. What else is new? Of course, it’s all my fault because I started the fight as usual -- according to Doug. I guess it’s just because some of the things he [...]
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  Posted: March 22, 2009, 3:34pm EDT
  

• Joe’s Call

  Joe called when I was about to log out of the computer. We talked for about 30 minutes or so. He sounded good and happy. He got rid of his apartment, and kept some of his stuff at his friend’s house in Hemet, California. He still has to stay [...]
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  Posted: March 19, 2009, 11:12am EDT
  

• Life Goes On

  I have been feeling a little bit blah. Maybe it’s because I’m still feeling tired from working a lot of hours the past few days. Thank God last night it wasn’t too bad. I got home at around 19:30 and didn’t go out for work again. Ran a call this [...]
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  Posted: March 19, 2009, 10:05am EDT
  

• St. Patty’s Day

  Happy St. Patrick’s Day! It’s a good day to call in sick, drink green beer all day at home and get totally drunk! Why not? It’s only once a year... ^_^
  
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  Posted: March 17, 2009, 12:34pm EDT
  

• Mother

  I am getting tired of Douglas’ behavior. I’m tired of coming home just to get yelled at or be told what I haven’t done or should’ve done. Heck, when I do the house chores, I never tell him that he should’ve done that or something. I just do it, and [...]
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  Posted: March 15, 2009, 6:15pm EDT
  

• The Fight

  Doug and I had another big fight last night. It’s the usual thing so I’m not gonna go into details. It’s like telling the same story over and over again. But, the fight was so bad that I decided to spend the night at Robert’s. The funny thing was as [...]
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  Posted: March 14, 2009, 1:40pm EDT
  

• TGIF for Me

  Today is my Friday. I’m off tomorrow till Sunday. Then, I’m gonna be working long hours all week next week from 8:30 to 23:00. Not fun, but the money is always good. At least now I’m starting to catch up with my financial matters.
  
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  Posted: March 12, 2009, 10:12am EDT
  

• Correction: Second Anniversary

  I messed up. It’s our second anniversary, not the third one. Ugh, I don’t know if my memory is going bad or I’m just not living in the real life anymore. I’ve never messed up this bad before in my life. What’s more embarrassing is that I wrote on my [...]
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  Posted: March 11, 2009, 8:46pm EDT
  

• Third Anniversary

  Today is the anniversary day of Doug and I being together for three years. I don’t really feel excited about it, but I guess just need to celebrate it. I got him a couple of things because he got me a few things also. We’re probably just gonna go [...]
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  Posted: March 11, 2009, 4:03pm EDT
  

• Hard Sell

  I am loving Melinda Doolittle’s new CD, Coming Back to You. She was voted off the American Idol from the Top 3. It was too bad, but it might be better for. Her performances on AI was pretty consistently great. I think getting an independent label let [...]
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  Posted: March 09, 2009, 3:42pm EDT