Things I care about right now:The one girl on my caseload who is in foster care.The terms of my lease agreement.The cost of laundry detergent.The music of "The [...]
They say that the moment you stop looking, you find what it is you were looking for. Stupid dating adage. What if you were never quite sure what you were looking for in the first place? But what it is you weren't sure of, you thought about constantly. And then [...]
I keep having dreams about you. Dreams in which you finally came around. It's not fair. We look happy. But a lot of things aren't fair. Like the way he thinks he can stare at me and not say anything. But yet he can, and does.and I end up resting [...]
Yesterday I went to the Church Hill "Not a House Tour" which consisted of moving to different locations outside of people's houses and alleyways. Or outside gardens. Free beer and cocktails. I didn't meet a whole lot of new people, but mostly stuck to the ones I did know. " [...]
We sat in the window together, in an apartment that was as new and strange to me as he was. It was approaching 4:30 a.m. Light was barely making headway in the Richmond sky...a view i'd seen of the city from a million different gazes out of a million different [...]
Went out to a bar in Short Pump last night and I just have a few questions.
What the hell is your group supposed to do when there is no distinct dance floor, you're weaving in and out of tables and chairs, girls are constantly bumping into you because [...]
Ladies, there are some very important things your mother never told you. She may have mentioned that it’s not appropriate to mix black and brown. She told you to always follow your heart, whatever that meant. She even advised you at one point, with a shrug, that it is impossible [...]
A drunken, haphazard embrace in front of an apartment door ends with the statement: "Goodbye. I know you don't like to be alone." She couldn't help but wonder if this was some sort of backhanded insult disguised as a sympathetic gesture. She could be needy at times, yes. Ok, a [...]
It turns out that picking up a nicotine habit again is like riding a bike-you can always remember how to do it. I've had many trials and tribulations with cigarettes, so I know my patterns. Usually I need to substitute for something else when I quit smoking. Such as food, [...]
Today I fully realized the plight of the single girl. In your state of perceived invincibility, there is a dangerous point to which it is certainly not fun anymore. It takes a turn toward scary. You must not trust anyone too easily. You really must not.
There are some nights where you cannot get drunk. Where you can down (and by that I mean chug) PBR for hours on end and not get the slightest buzz. That time was last night. No matter what i did, I could not get out of my inherent state of [...]
The light at the ceiling and the sound of birds gave away that it was early morning; I woke up with the pulsating, pounding feeling of a hangover at my temples. "I have a headache", I said, we both smiled, the usual repartee, and it was nothing new.
A year ago, I was on my best behavior. I would cook dinner for my boyfriend as one of those features of a committed, monogomous relationship. We rented movies and posted up on the couch to watch Rock of Love every Sunday. I went to the gym often, studied with [...]
Unlike many of my (female) friends, I have been single for long periods of time and have come to know firsthand, from an objective standpoint, many messages that are projected in regards to the single girl lifestyle. A lot of this is ingrained in our culture and most of it [...]
I am such a negative Nancy, to borrow a descriptive noun being thrown around lately by my friend Meghan. I tend to only want to write when I am in a weird mood. I'm sorry, self.[...]
I suppose this weekend was a bitter penance that I deserved for the flurry of blackout hailstorms that had so categorized even my weeknights for a while there. A sobering dose of my infalliability, how I can fall down the rabbit hole so suddenly and with destructive inertia.
What's a girl to do when she's waiting by the phone expectantly for a call? She cleans her entire apartment top to bottom. Seriously, I'm running out of things to clean and that's pretty sad.
Last week was hell. somehow I managed to contract strep throat which i [...]
I now have the cat that you bought to try to save our relationship. She is perhaps the only soul who cares right now. Even you are probably resting your head, getting prepared for a work day. Fuck you.
I am currently updating this blog from the back seat of a rental car in South Lake Tahoe, California. The foster parents that I'm with are parked at a post office trying to send out some postcards.
I am excluding myself, listening to my ipod and playing on [...]
Here I am, sitting on a furniture-less brick floor where my conversations aloud tend to echo. I am thinking about coping mechanisms and am going to open up a new window to go over what Freud came up with.
If you look at the grief/loss cycle for our children [...]
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